I deleted snapchat

It's not lit anymore. Everyone goes out every night and i'm stuck at home being sober. Maybe it's for the best. When I drink, I can't stop because I drink to numb the pain. It sucks so bad having a job and going to college and commuting. I literally overthink everything and Im stressed to the point where I just want to give up. My life is literally heading towards the trash. I'm not happy with anything right now. Now matter how much glamour, fame and fortune that may come my way. I'm not happy. I don't think I can turn things around at this point. I've fucked up so badly in the past and it came back to haunt me. No one really cares about me, and I'm kinda not caring about myself either anymore. Oh well


cindy chen